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| Letting go of things |
[17 Nov 2009|03:20am] |
I've really tried to bite my tounge about this for a long time. I knew I had it coming for me and not only had, I was aware of what I was possibly getting into. However, I'm disappointed in how some people are reacting to all this.
so, I'm going to get to the point of this all, I just need to get this rant out.
I'm... not looking for a pity party, I'm asking for some goddamn fucking respect. Because I've let go and forgiven people for things that are not only incomparable to this, but just about life scarring.
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[08 Oct 2009|01:53pm] |
NOOOOOOOOO
I was gonna make a huge post, I accidentally hit back on my browser and Autosave failed on me T_T
goddamn
It was going to be meaningful and everything
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| Just Cause |
[14 Sep 2009|02:47am] |
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you know...
I had a small (and very quiet) victory today. (that I did for someone else)
I feel damn good about it.
Once things quiet down on facebook, it'll get better.
Because goddamnit, I deserve to be happy.
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| FanExpo 2009 |
[01 Sep 2009|12:37am] |
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And so... a con is just isn't a con without a mountain of drama so high, it would make mount everest feel small and insignificant.
I really do feel that I was more stressed out this weekend than anything. and the last time I was this piss poor at a con was FanExpo 2004.
I didn't really cosplay for too long, my self-conciousness really won that battle. though I still wore my maid outfit on saturday... it's the cheap and easy costume that dosen't require a mountain or primping, just the occasional fix with the headpiece.
I don't know if I could have gone through this weekend without my friends. I love you guys all so much <3.
For those who don't already know, me and Brandon broke up on the Saturday of FanExpo. It's been a long time coming unfortunatley, and we both realized it'll be better this way, well... to stay friends. We still love each other a lot.. it's just... not the way we once did, and as heartbreaking as that sounds (and as it is) it's okay.
I cried a lot these past few weeks. I even broke down several times this weekend. It was more over the shock that it actually happened. I've said earlier that I was terrified of leaving my comfort zone. Both me and Brandon were, but we laughed through the break-up, as silly as that sounds, we really can't have a serious conversation.
From here on I'm looking forward to a new beginning. I'm done with crying, I'm done licking my own wounds. I'm going to pick myself up and move forward, after all, things haven't changed all that much. (It's funny that I say this now, because about 4 years ago, when I said this then... I baaawed for 3 months straight XD... I know it's different this time though)
I think I also owe someone a small apology... ...I think that'll have to wait still
as for the rest of the con... it feels like a blur. I watched the masquerade this year (the first time in 5 years) it was freaking awesome, though is it horrible, that since I've started doing skits (in a srs bsns matter) that I judge other skits a lot if they seem ill prepared? haha
Only 2 months left until youma-con... my god I can't wait for that. It really is home away from home <3
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| goddamnit all |
[17 Aug 2009|03:48am] |
For the past few months... I've been catching myself in a wierd... mood? phase? I really can't think of a word... I'll use thing. I've been thinking a lot about my future, where it's going, what's going to come of it. I knew a few things for certain... it's just now, I don't feel it so much, or at all. This "thing" as I've named it now, has been haunting me for months. Daring me to step outside my comfort zone. I've been unhappy for a while. I didn't understand the connection or how it all added up until this week. I'm beating myself up over it. But I know in my heart what the answer is.
I feel wretched, miserable, confused, and just angry and full of sorrow.
I'm terrified of leaving my comfort zone. I've grown so used to it.
I know it'll put things into perspective, I know it'll change things and turn my world upside down.
I really hate this.
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| Cooking Lina! (literally!) |
[26 Jul 2009|06:59pm] |
After lovingly cooking for my friends for like.... ever. I've finally decided to start a blog just for my cooking/recipies/kitchen rants. I urge EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU to spread the word of this blog, I'm going to be posting lots of recipies accumulated/made over the years. I'm really excited that I can share one of my passions in this manner so I hope to see you all there!!
http://cookinglina.wordpress.com
now this dosen't mean I'll be leaving LJ at all. I'll still be here just as infrequently as per usual XD. I still need somewhere to rant about everything hehe
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| just stuff |
[16 Jul 2009|02:13am] |
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I quit my job today. T____T
I needed to do this so I can get off my ass and actually focus on doing something that's more rewarding than working 7 hours a week.
I'm also going to take this opportunity to travel a lot in August. Which reminds me that my passport stuff has to be done tomorrow >____>
It's a bit disheartening that in September I'm not going to schoo yet. however with all the crap that's been going on at home, I'm not really surprised. whenever I'm ready I'll go >_>
this is a good thing, I know it.
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[05 Jul 2009|08:12pm] |
Based on things that's happening to me recently, I think I would be able to make what is quite possibly the most amazing script for a cheesy romantic-comedy movie. I'm still debating if this is or isn't a good thing.
nono... scratch that. I change that to a novella... I think so.
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[03 Jul 2009|01:46pm] |
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I want to start working on my Gurren-Vocaloid cosplay for Otakuthon ._.
Materials (lots and lots of materials! <3)
Black Dress Shirt (Lady/French cut)
Red Bias tape... and lots of it
Red tie
Red and white fabric paint... wait just white... i have red
some minimal amount of black fabric for arm warmers...
moar bias tape
fun foam
dollar store headset microphone
yeah... I think that about covers everything, I already have pants OH hair sticks >_> that's a good idea... while I'm at it I should probably fix up my regular Kami-Yoko cosplay too... I think I'm missing like... 2 things from it.. yep :D
and I haven't even started on my FanExpo Hetalia cosplay T_T
I should post more of my rantings more often >____>
still haven't made a new layout yet either... hmmmmm
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[30 Jun 2009|01:51am] |
I think I need a new layout again >_> ... ... and actually make it this time
not like all those other fake times
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[25 Jun 2009|02:19am] |
Making decisions like this is hard .___.
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| Anime North 09 <3 |
[26 May 2009|12:11am] |
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I had such an amazing weekend. Like, for the first time, in a very long time, I wasn't worried about anything going awry, or blowing up in my face, I didn't even mind being at the Crowne Plaza (however, I am DEF staying at the Radisson next year anyways) Anime North this year reminded me why I fell in love with cons so much back at AN in 04. It just brings up all the feel goods I can think of.
The truth is, I've just grown happier. I'm in a place right now in my life, where I'm surrounded by good... no, great things. I've managed to keep myself busy.
I thought a lot about things that have bothered me a lot in the recent past. I look back at a lot of them, I realize that I don't miss it. I've grown so much from it. (haha it's about time that I do in 22 years XD) Mind you, I'm not like that with EVERYTHING yet, Mostly things from the last 6-7 months I'm still working on... but it gets easier every day.
Anyways... totally drifting off topic X3
I was at the Reneissance hotel a lot this year, and while there I took an opportunity to look around at what Anime North WAS... back in 04. (this dosen't include how the TCC was back then) but it was so tiny in comparison. the only "con" hotels at the time were the Renaissance and the Crowne Plaza (back then Park Plaza) and only a small portion of the TCC was used for the con, and it was still retardedly easy to get an artist alley table and wasn't all messed up with dumb rules seperating the crafts with comics/prints.
The skit contest went over awesome. I keep re-watching the video, and everything just went perfectly when doing it. We almost won best comedy but we just got one upped by a different group. to be honest, I didn't really care. We did so well and I had such a blast doing it. I do think that means a bit more.
My Saturday night at the con however, was the best. for the first time since I've been staying overnight at North, I missed the dance... and really I couldn't care less. I did come back to my hotel room that night totally drunk off my ass (mostly giggly really from a con-high... why? das a secret ^_~) I keep thinking back to it with a glazed over smile.
Sunday was a nice close to a very, very exhausting but fun weekend. the last time I felt this satisfied after a con was Youma-con. (well... G-anime was awesome, but that was because it was a first year con that went so well <3 ...and because it was in Quebec and French boys are pretty XD)
Next year, I don't know if it'll be better or worse. either way I had such an amazing time. This is just giving me the drive to make ConBravo that much better for next summer.
I think I'm done gushing and stuff. I'm heading to bed <3
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| gah |
[10 May 2009|07:06pm] |
Well Shit.
What the hell do I do now?
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| me and the boyfriend are complete nerds |
[29 Apr 2009|12:23am] |
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So me and Brandon are sitting across from each other on our laptops, listening to the webcast of a hungarian radio station I listen to frequently (this is to keep my hungarian vocabulary decent) and he hear an intro to a song.... we wait and we both look at the other and begin to lip synch:
"I!! I JUST IED IN YOUR ARMS TONIGHT! MUST HAVE BEEN SOMETHING YOU SAID!"
XD LAWL. At the same time we're such nerds.
anywhoo today I went fer realz grocery shopping, and it took about 2 hours longer then it possibly hsould have after me and brandon MISSED EVERY SINGLE BUS IMAGINABLE.
We went to the Yuan Ming Supermarket on Burnamthorpe so I can buy tasties... which was lots of frozn pork buns, udon, a giant bag of rice, a GIANT bottle of teriyaki sauce of happiness, pocky, pretz, hello kitty chopsticks, 6 cans of arizona red apple green tea (they were 3 for $2! <3) and glico curry.
Priorities. I has them XD
so I realized after this small haul, I needed real food too... so after hoisting ourselves back on the 26 to go back to South Common, we made a stopover at the food basics, simply because their flyer was the most pleasing to me this morning.
after stocking up on real food like tasty ingredients to make delicious curry tonight (and by real food, I mean cereal, stuff that takes me no time to prepare...and delicious bbq sauce <333) oh and cat food... like 10 cans should keep me awesome for a while @_@ living by myself sucks. like rly. I want my mum to come home soon... but alas I have tasty curry for now, my boyfriend across from me being a nerd, and honey nut cheerios to greet me in the morning.
you know you're a loser when you blog about your groceries. XD anyways, zomg excitment! Anime North is just around the corner! along with my Birthday (HO SNAP! I'ma turning 22!) yeah... I ran out of things ^^;; this BLAG almost always turns into my random bitching ground for life >_>
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| Cosplay shiz! |
[19 Apr 2009|05:01pm] |
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For once I'm going to do my cosplay properly (hory shit I'm gonna order a wig!) and just for my own self re-assurance, I'm going to write down the list of crap I'm going to need >_>
Gurren Lagann cosplay:
-Wig. a huge fuckin wig. XD
-rip apart current huge cape and alter for cosplay... help will be needed T_T
-long flared black pants, prefferably light because of weather during Anime North is hot as hell. Add two red strips on bottom for funtiems.
-EITHER a black drawstring bikini top OR a black bra, depending on how I want to destroy my back flames added to the bottom
-EPIC Granny Panties/Spanx/control tops (hohoho) in beige prefferably, it'll push my tummy (yes ladies and gentlemen, I'm fat XD) making it smaller AND!
-Bandages to wrap around waist, not only will it hide the control tops, it will blend into it matching the cosplay (WHOO!)
-Flip flops. I don't have to wear boots. Fucking sweet.
-make those ridiculous kamina glasses... probably from some crazy plastic @_@ (I would use shrinky dinks but the permanent marker would scratch off very easily.
Ginjinka Pokeymans cosplay:
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-choose pokemans
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that's all I got
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| Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood |
[18 Apr 2009|01:20am] |
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Last week I finally managed to get a view at the new "HO SNAP! CTRL+Z" version of FMA.
Initial thoughts (besides my girly fangasming) include:
At first I really would have thought that with the announcment of more Fullmetal, they would try to go back to the Shamballa arc and base the series around the Elic brothers trying to find a way back to Amestris, I find that it probably would have been more entertaining because that movie hurts me so much. It always felt so final, and not the FULL happy ending they deserve.
Upon hearing that it's a re-telling of the story to follow the manga my initial thought was (HO SNAP AWESOME) but thinking on how they would pull it off. so much of the story was already brought out in the original series, if it wasn't for the excessive stress on red stones along with the anime version of the homunculus (how they're made and the anime versions OF them like Sloth, Pride, Wrath, and Greed 2.0)
I think I was kind of hoping for a recap of sorts and then continue the sorty where it strayed off from the manga.
So as far as the first two episodes of Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood goes, I can say this; I really do think they jumped the gun WAY too early with the main storyline, already signs of what is to come was placed in the first episode, (or as I reffer to it as "LAWL foreshadowing") and already having mention of the land of Xerxes in the second episode when there was a flashback of the Elric brothers going through their father's books. However the filler for how Edward and Alphonse got to the point from their childhood, to the Taboo transmutation of their dead mother/Edward's automail surgery/State Alchemist exam was very quick and rushed. I know this is because most of the viewers of this series probably have seen the 2004 version AND are reading the manga, therefore making it a bit "TL;DR" for them (including myself)
another thing I'd like to point out is the opening credits, even there huge parts of the main plot are leaking out of it. (oh yes, it is) for those who have not read the manga yet I urge to do so now. On that note the OP/ED themes are fantastic. as always studio bones/square enix know how to pick their music for and animated series.
What I do love about the series, is that stylistically, it's been a few years since the old FMA, the artstyle has gone crisper, and the story setting (especially Central city) is darker and harsher in texture, giving it a more realistic feel. and while I do feel at times they're trying to rush us along to get to the main plot of the story, it's great to see something... almost new unfold with what you consider old friends now. Despite my occasional whining, I'm really happy to see FMA all over again, with the story it truly deserves to be told with (I think that made sense) This is even great for new fans to see an all around favorite for most anime (and eve non-anime) fans. and even with the manga still being incomplete, it looks like they are going to finish together (or nearly together) harmoniously.
/end rant
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| GAAAH! |
[01 Apr 2009|08:27pm] |
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fuck me sideways and my idiotic 18 year old self that was too fucking lazy to get a decent fucking mark in English, and now my chances of getting into Sheridan just might suffer because I can't just write a mature student exam to prove that I'm not an idiot. gah. I'm going to call them tomorrow and grovel and demand to know what I can do
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[30 Mar 2009|11:38am] |
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I AM NOT SOMEONE WHO YOU TREAT AS A TOY! NEVER GIVE ME AN ULTIMATUM LIKE THAT AGAIN. EVER. AND LEAVE BRANDON OUT OF THIS
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